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W:O:A 2015
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Hey guys and girls welcome to my freaky Journal again!
Well it was too long ago i wrote sth.
I'm fine and feel good aaaaaaand I have summer holidays. nyahahahahaha >w<"
Yeah but i just came back from the WACKEN OPEN AIR 2015 in Germany!
Man it was muddy and wet and well... did I mention it was muddy?!? HAHA
well it was nice to see so many bands I love and have agreat time with my best friend and her bf.
I saw OOMPH! with a great spectaculary show, man I was so happy after that concert!
Then i watched Sepultura old but still awesome!
Then a band i never watched or listened to before "Danko Jones" He was the only Rock-act on Wacken and he made a lot of funny speeches (a few too much) but, the music was very nice!
Then i listened a little to the In Flames concert, but yeah well, too much crowded for me there.
Last act I saw was Lord of the Lost, they are pretty rat!
Love that band and can't wait for their new album to come out.
Yeah and today we drove very tired back from the camping Ground to our homes.
Damn what a great time!
Missed ya all!
P.s. I was so sad i wasn't allowed to take my Nikon with me. Q__Q I could have made so great shots.
It will be a great memory in my mind forever. ^^
Cheers!
Well it was too long ago i wrote sth.
I'm fine and feel good aaaaaaand I have summer holidays. nyahahahahaha >w<"
Yeah but i just came back from the WACKEN OPEN AIR 2015 in Germany!
Man it was muddy and wet and well... did I mention it was muddy?!? HAHA
well it was nice to see so many bands I love and have agreat time with my best friend and her bf.
I saw OOMPH! with a great spectaculary show, man I was so happy after that concert!
Then i watched Sepultura old but still awesome!
Then a band i never watched or listened to before "Danko Jones" He was the only Rock-act on Wacken and he made a lot of funny speeches (a few too much) but, the music was very nice!
Then i listened a little to the In Flames concert, but yeah well, too much crowded for me there.
Last act I saw was Lord of the Lost, they are pretty rat!
Love that band and can't wait for their new album to come out. Yeah and today we drove very tired back from the camping Ground to our homes.
Damn what a great time!
Missed ya all!
P.s. I was so sad i wasn't allowed to take my Nikon with me. Q__Q I could have made so great shots.
It will be a great memory in my mind forever. ^^
Cheers!
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Happy new year and update
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Ages ago I started this DA account and felt like uploading some stuff that swirr around my head and things I love like taking pictures and writing for example.
This year I slowly started doing sth. again on my own and it felt a little bit better to see, that some people actually like my photos that i took.
It's a great feeling after I didn't do sth. in a whole while and helps me to have hope in my hobby again that i put away from me in a whole lot of time, because i was fed up by anything around me.
So the end of the year is slowly creeping to it's end and for the thing I will not be online today anymore,
I wish all of you a very good new year and hope you can fulfill all the things you want to do in the new year.
Have strength and health and don't forget to say hello in the new year, I won't bite.... at least not until you are female and i like your blood-type.
Stay tuned for new pics I will take and see if I can do what I intend to do. (doing pics again and have fun with my friends in here)
Cheers,
BlacksoulofDeath
Alexander
This year I slowly started doing sth. again on my own and it felt a little bit better to see, that some people actually like my photos that i took.
It's a great feeling after I didn't do sth. in a whole while and helps me to have hope in my hobby again that i put away from me in a whole lot of time, because i was fed up by anything around me.
So the end of the year is slowly creeping to it's end and for the thing I will not be online today anymore,
I wish all of you a very good new year and hope you can fulfill all the things you want to do in the new year.
Have strength and health and don't forget to say hello in the new year, I won't bite.... at least not until you are female and i like your blood-type.
Stay tuned for new pics I will take and see if I can do what I intend to do. (doing pics again and have fun with my friends in here)
Cheers,
BlacksoulofDeath
Alexander
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Awesome~
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Yooo... long time ago, wasn't it? i think it was quite the same time last year.
Yeah i still don't like christmas and all that stuff, but that doesn't mean i can't say Merry x-mas to you all!
Hope you all have fun and think of me, when you're celebrating.
I quiet actually get to know now, why i was actually most times the way that I am.
Hard to swallow all the ego that build up, over the life.
Pathetic..., i even think i would have done things diffrent, if i had the chance one more time.
Especially with the friends i have had and my gf's i had.
I was a selfish and didn't look for the mistakes at my own, or the exactly diffrent kind and did it the other way around and just gave myself all the guilt.
I think i am only myself when i have a breakdown at the moment. My mind becomes more clear and even if i feel empty inside i can talk about it, sounds crazy, doesn't it? Perhaps good that i go to a Psychiatric clinic to cure myself. I don't know, if the most of my Deviantart friends are too self esteemed, or just don't recognize it sometimes, that they should let them help, or they just get help all along, so they don't go all mad.
I even know that mostly noone will read this stuff i write, because they don't like to go sad or feel guilty or anything like that.
I almost lost all my friends, because they couldn't life with me, when i go to a clinic, or that i am creepy , because i am not that talkable anymore, or just step in, when they need help, because i don't feel any better. I did it over the past year for them and after i stopped, i lost a lot "fake" friends like i call them now.
So to all, that will actually really read what i write, thank you, that you took your time, to read my feelings at the ending time of the year. I really appreciate it!
If girls or guys that knew me in the past read that, i only can say, that I am really sorry what I did to you if you were a gf, or a friend. I was a totally asshole, because i wasn't able to work over the death of my father in 2002 and I am still not able to in 2011.
Everytime if i try to get close to someone, it works for a short amount of time and then i just close myself up again. I know there are plenty of people out there, that do exactly the same in there life, believe me i met a few.
Thanks for a few people here on Deviantart I met in the last weeks, to make me a bit more cheerful and try to enjoy my life a little better.
Who am I talking about? mhhh... for example I talk about Sei-ten a very great artist here on Deviantart, she is drawing great art now and she will get even better bit by bit she is drawing. If you wanna see her account go for it! sei-ten.deviantart.com/
AND I am talking about TheSinisterLove here on Deviantart. He is a hell of a cosplayer! He makes his cosplays by himself and still, he is a very good hearted person! Have a look at his page: thesinisterlove.deviantart.com…
If you feel like talking, or just wanna stop by for a short hello, you are welcome.
But if you just want to mock me, after i said what is written here, please go back to the place where you came from!
Yeah that were quite the new/old news. Sometimes i just give up, using Deviantart anymore... noone in here is able to talk, has no time, or is just an ass and is only interested in his/her work. Where did the family thing go?... I dunno. ^^
Merry X-mas!
Yeah i still don't like christmas and all that stuff, but that doesn't mean i can't say Merry x-mas to you all!
Hope you all have fun and think of me, when you're celebrating.
I quiet actually get to know now, why i was actually most times the way that I am.
Hard to swallow all the ego that build up, over the life.
Pathetic..., i even think i would have done things diffrent, if i had the chance one more time.
Especially with the friends i have had and my gf's i had.
I was a selfish and didn't look for the mistakes at my own, or the exactly diffrent kind and did it the other way around and just gave myself all the guilt.
I think i am only myself when i have a breakdown at the moment. My mind becomes more clear and even if i feel empty inside i can talk about it, sounds crazy, doesn't it? Perhaps good that i go to a Psychiatric clinic to cure myself. I don't know, if the most of my Deviantart friends are too self esteemed, or just don't recognize it sometimes, that they should let them help, or they just get help all along, so they don't go all mad.
I even know that mostly noone will read this stuff i write, because they don't like to go sad or feel guilty or anything like that.
I almost lost all my friends, because they couldn't life with me, when i go to a clinic, or that i am creepy , because i am not that talkable anymore, or just step in, when they need help, because i don't feel any better. I did it over the past year for them and after i stopped, i lost a lot "fake" friends like i call them now.
So to all, that will actually really read what i write, thank you, that you took your time, to read my feelings at the ending time of the year. I really appreciate it!
If girls or guys that knew me in the past read that, i only can say, that I am really sorry what I did to you if you were a gf, or a friend. I was a totally asshole, because i wasn't able to work over the death of my father in 2002 and I am still not able to in 2011.
Everytime if i try to get close to someone, it works for a short amount of time and then i just close myself up again. I know there are plenty of people out there, that do exactly the same in there life, believe me i met a few.
Thanks for a few people here on Deviantart I met in the last weeks, to make me a bit more cheerful and try to enjoy my life a little better.
Who am I talking about? mhhh... for example I talk about Sei-ten a very great artist here on Deviantart, she is drawing great art now and she will get even better bit by bit she is drawing. If you wanna see her account go for it! sei-ten.deviantart.com/
AND I am talking about TheSinisterLove here on Deviantart. He is a hell of a cosplayer! He makes his cosplays by himself and still, he is a very good hearted person! Have a look at his page: thesinisterlove.deviantart.com…
If you feel like talking, or just wanna stop by for a short hello, you are welcome.
But if you just want to mock me, after i said what is written here, please go back to the place where you came from!
Yeah that were quite the new/old news. Sometimes i just give up, using Deviantart anymore... noone in here is able to talk, has no time, or is just an ass and is only interested in his/her work. Where did the family thing go?... I dunno. ^^
Merry X-mas!
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Christmas and the End of the year
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The year is gonna end!
Hope you will all celebrate it at the best and will drink for me! ;D (Can't 'cause of medication)
Yeah few things changed.°° I am solo again, i feel ok, but the past reached me and so it's clinic time.
I hope i can recover it at the best, so i can make a shooting next year, with a few friends or so on.
Love ya all and wish ya a big christmas time and if we don't talk until then, a happy new year! °,°
Cheers,
Alex
Hope you will all celebrate it at the best and will drink for me! ;D (Can't 'cause of medication)
Yeah few things changed.°° I am solo again, i feel ok, but the past reached me and so it's clinic time.
I hope i can recover it at the best, so i can make a shooting next year, with a few friends or so on.
Love ya all and wish ya a big christmas time and if we don't talk until then, a happy new year! °,°
Cheers,
Alex
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